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Me..revealed

Before youbegin and take that step towards me
theres a few things you should know.
I've lived in this world for enough years now
and with those years come experience.
Before you go and ask me to open my mouth
you should think about what might come out of it.
Be ready for the hello and be ready for the goodbye.
Be ready for me to ask how your day was
and wish you to take care.
But also be ready for the i love yous or the i hate yous
or the sorrys or the i miss yous.
Before you open your mouth know that I'll hear every word.
And know that it will be remembered,
so you'd better make sure they all are true and real.
Before you ask me to look in your eyes be ready to look back inmine.
They are the gates into my soul
and should you see back into me be ready to hold all my past,
for the baggage is great and the pains within greater,
as are the dreams and the hopes of what may be.
Before you go and touch my hand or my arm or my face
know that I'll remember it.
Know that underneath your fingers lie many scars done by myself
and done by others.
i have been to hell and back
and my emotions hang upon the last frayed edges of the thread ofmy existence.
I will be a silly lovesick puppy one minute.
I will be a heartless bitch the next.
It is all that I know and less that I can help.
You must be brave to know me
and it is all I can do to be brave enough to open up to you.
I'm scared of being hurt.
i'm scared I'll screw things up.
I'm scared of being rejected.
I'm scared I'll never feel whole.
Bad luck is my best friend, a fragmented heart my only possession.
All alone in my own little world
I sleep looking through rose colored glasses
I wake looking through the darkest ones ever made.
So before you begin and take that step towards me
these things you should know.
I've lived in this world for enough years now
and those years come with experience.
All I want is love.
And it just might come from you.
But behind what you may think is a pretty girl
or a nice smile lies so much more.
You might not be able to deal with all that.
And I'm tired of trying and being left to my wounds,
so if you're not ready - leave me be.
And I'll go on living my life
and you go on living yours.